Love Shares

I had a very wonderful experience of love back in 1984 that still moves me to this day. It was not what I expected and did not come the way I had thought. It was late in the evening one night and I was sitting in the South Fallsburg Ashram lobby watching Gurumayi give darshan to a group of very well known sevites. Gurumayi was talking with them and I was simply sitting and looking over now and then, trying to look inconspicuous. This was back in the older days when groups did not always throng to the Guru. After awhile she told the security guard to say something to me. He came over and said he was sorry but I would have to go. Gurumayi said no she wanted me to come over. I went in front of her and bowed, even here I could feel the energy and the love. She ask me my name and some other questions about how I was doing, it was very nice. Soon after we all left and everyone went to their rooms for sleep.

I fell to sleep simply and easily and for the first part of the night I did not dream. I did end up having one very nice dream that night however. I was in the Namaste` room where the darshan had been that night and Gurumayi was there. She walked up to me and I was scared and moved against the wall. Smiling sweetly she put me at ease and slowly walked up to me. Then she made a fist and struck me in the heart area with much force. I was not afraid and it did not hurt. Instead it was like getting a huge shot of energy. My chest swelled with the powerful energy which seemed to be changing colors in my minds eye, with yellow on the outside and red and blue in the center. It was swirling and giving me the most blissful feeling. Slowly it turned into the most gentle feeling of love I had ever felt. I woke up and could still feel the love and energy in my heart, it was very real. That feeling of love has never really left me, as the tender sweet love one feels when he see's a selfless act, this experience has been a beacon for me.
---Das